Anxiety

I wrote a whole lot last night, and it would make one ridiculously long blog post if I put it all up at once, so I'm going to break this new entry into several posts...It's like a TV miniseries! Tune in tomorrow to see the next exciting chapter!

Since I have gotten here, my life has been full of anxiety. How do I get along with others as a teammate, not a leader? What will people think of me if I tell them about the real me? How do I convince myself to run when I don’t think I can? I’m always worrying about something. I don’t know that I’ve ever not worried about something. But “Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down” (Proverbs 12:25a), and the worry has made me sick to my stomach. Why do I always have to worry? It’s entirely possible that it comes from an inability to prioritize things because of the lack of a clearly stated purpose in my life.

So here we go: My goal is to be a missionary, one who spreads the good news of the gospel to the unreached. My life is dedicated from this moment on to that purpose. I will go where Jesus sends me, do what Jesus tells me to do, and submit to the authority He has placed over me. I renounce all claims the enemy has on my life, my mind, and my attitude and will submit to all instruction here with the end goal of becoming Christlike in all aspects, so that those who may never know Jesus otherwise can know Him through me.

Tomorrow, I'll fill you in on what this new-found statement of purpose is going to require of me and how I hope to achieve it.